... is my new weight :). I actually started at 99.1 kilos several days ago, meaning I almost lost 5 kilos. This time, I will treat my current weight as if there was a difference of five kilos *yay~!* ^^. Meaning, I have to think of something I want to do to myself. Something good :) ... Who knows what it will be? I don*t yet :D.
Sonntag, 17. Mai 2009
Freitag, 15. Mai 2009
Another weight loss entry :)
Abusing the balance this morning made me get the result "95.5 kg" :). I am really, really happy. Remember my start weight? That*s the point :D.
And my granny* didn*t notice that. But do I care? This time I won*t ... (She often makes strange remarks about my body, and I should be used to it by now.) I remember the last time I did care about that I stopped the entire diet; this time I will continue doing so.
Once again she talked to my mum* about my disease. I ... cannot say how much I hate that. "It is all her father's fault that she turned out to be ill!" and whatnot. =o= First of all, I AM NOT ILL. Even people sharing this fate have told me I am not. Secondly, why should it be my father's fault?! When I was diagnosed with schizophrenic psychosis I hadn*t seen him for quite awhile.
... But should I go around and tell everyone "whose fault" it is? Guess! It is entirely mine ... Solely mine. I said I was like that because I wanted to shelter another person. Who wouldn*t do that?! And in the end, it all turned out to be very real what I went through, and this is probably the worst thing of it all ...
And my granny* didn*t notice that. But do I care? This time I won*t ... (She often makes strange remarks about my body, and I should be used to it by now.) I remember the last time I did care about that I stopped the entire diet; this time I will continue doing so.
Once again she talked to my mum* about my disease. I ... cannot say how much I hate that. "It is all her father's fault that she turned out to be ill!" and whatnot. =o= First of all, I AM NOT ILL. Even people sharing this fate have told me I am not. Secondly, why should it be my father's fault?! When I was diagnosed with schizophrenic psychosis I hadn*t seen him for quite awhile.
... But should I go around and tell everyone "whose fault" it is? Guess! It is entirely mine ... Solely mine. I said I was like that because I wanted to shelter another person. Who wouldn*t do that?! And in the end, it all turned out to be very real what I went through, and this is probably the worst thing of it all ...
Donnerstag, 14. Mai 2009
Do what you want but don*t forget the ... MILK!
It*s been a long time since I last wrote something in here. So I told myself : "I should maybe do so again.", and here I am!! (Hooray for stupid intros, pt. 1!)
I hope everyone is alright. :)
I am happy because I started losing weight again. I stick to the pauses and haven*t drunk any cocoa or coke or similar stuff for the past four (?) days. I also don*t mind walking a little and whatnot.
The moment I weighed myself the first time again two or three days ago, I was not really surprised, though I should have been. 99.1 kilos - That*s way too much to take. I sort of felt numb, but also, I knew I wanted to change something about it ... And so I started the diet again.
Yesterday it was still 97.3 kilos, this morning it was 96.9 kilos. I know this sounds like much, but this is normal when you are doing this kind of diet ("Wake Up"). And the next few days will probably be harder, but I won*t give up again this time!
The bolded weight was the highest weight I have ever reached. I actually really hate the fact that I got to this point, and I am happy I was able to turn the steering wheel *round. Okay, it has just been a few days, but I have been disciplined. And I ate strawberries again~~!! +___+ (HOORAY FOR STRAWBERRIES!!! :D)
And that*s that. :)
I hope everyone is alright. :)
I am happy because I started losing weight again. I stick to the pauses and haven*t drunk any cocoa or coke or similar stuff for the past four (?) days. I also don*t mind walking a little and whatnot.
The moment I weighed myself the first time again two or three days ago, I was not really surprised, though I should have been. 99.1 kilos - That*s way too much to take. I sort of felt numb, but also, I knew I wanted to change something about it ... And so I started the diet again.
Yesterday it was still 97.3 kilos, this morning it was 96.9 kilos. I know this sounds like much, but this is normal when you are doing this kind of diet ("Wake Up"). And the next few days will probably be harder, but I won*t give up again this time!
The bolded weight was the highest weight I have ever reached. I actually really hate the fact that I got to this point, and I am happy I was able to turn the steering wheel *round. Okay, it has just been a few days, but I have been disciplined. And I ate strawberries again~~!! +___+ (HOORAY FOR STRAWBERRIES!!! :D)
And that*s that. :)
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