And yet more of a difference.

Yo! (Ain*t I cool? - NOOO!!)

I now only use the balance weekly, which is the best thing that might have happened to me lately. The weight this morning was 84.8 kilos (I gained 100g in comparison to last week*s Friday). I am still satisfied with it, though; at least I didn*t gain much more.

This week was the week of sweets - somehow. And bread. Which I actually only should eat twice a week. :( So, not paying attention to this, I ate a lot, but I kept the pauses, which might have been my rescue. And I didn*t eat the "Snickers" I was offered this week, because of that animal testing story that Mars was/is involved in. I wouldn*t support these morons, NEVER AGAIN.

*blah* But, well, today we will have Physical Education, so -- YAY~!! Ping pong!! ^.^ I think it is much fun. I hope I will be able to write a post in the other two blogs soon. I am looking forward to writing the articles :). Yesyesyes!

Oh, and BTW, I am working on a new piece of art~! ^.^

Some ... Ch-ch-ch-changes!

First of all, please let me draw your attention to a thing I have seen in another blog. The story behind it that the composer saw a picture of various birds on five wires, and put notes everywhere the birds sat, so that it became a melody :). The video can be found here.

Besides that, I just have the feeling I get back into blogging mood recently. It makes me happy there are blogs on so many different things, and you can read about them and get to know new things and whatnot. I guess mine is sort of "mixed", which might be a good thing, but maybemaybeMAYBE I should at least create new ones for other purposes, so that these things can be overviewed easily.

Maybe I will create a zine, too. It has been one of my dreams for quite a while now :P ... I also already know what to write about ... Okay, I actually have two things that might be interesting ... (To represent the Esotante of doom, and something related to music. Maybe I will ask for some help, though ... I don*t know yet :D.)

But, yeah, I am planning to upload a whole lot more. Hopefully I can live up to my dreams! GANBATTE!! ^^

Yet more weight loss talk :)

Hello everyone :),

I know I am most likely annoying everyone with this, but I am still doing this diet, and I am happy to announce some days ago my weight was below 90 kilos and it stayed this way. And even though I hardly believe the weight the balance showed this morning (86.3 kilos) was right, I am still happy.

I wanted to write more about the diet, without advertising it.

- There are many different types of meals. For example, if you eat several pieces of the same fruit (up to approximately five when they have a certain size ...), you have to do two hours of a pause afterwards. If you eat various types of fruits at once, or if you eat something like yoghurt (PURE!) or drink milk (PURE!), there are two hours pause afterwards. Then there are alkaline meals (I think they have a pause of two hours afterwards, too, but I am not sure here), and concentrated (?) meals (three hours pause afterwards). And there are soups; some of them having only one pause afterwards. :)

- Besides the pauses, there are some things one has to notice. For example, when you want to eat bread with cheese, you have to pay attention that the cheese has at least 50% fat. If you want to eat carbs with mayonnaise, the mayonnaise has to have at least 80% fat. And the beat goes on. Funny though, it really works. ^^

- There is one absolutely fat-free day every week. It is called "Entlastungstag" in German, so ... "Relief day"?

- Ah yes, and with some meals, you have to eat some salad along with it. For example concentrated meals, but I think you also have to do so with alkaline meals. You also have to eat salad along with potato salad :). Because this counts as a concentrated meal as far as I know.

- There are many recipes for sweet stuff in the various books and thin booklets we have of this diet, but you have to plan those sweet meals very well :).

- Last but not least, if you drink tea or water, you can drink as much as you like from it (I think the only exception is black tea). Since I love tea, this is really a great thing ^o^ ... And I sometimes drink orange juice mixed with water, too. But not too much; I remember gaining weight from orange juice as it is :(. I actually wonder why, since it didn*t have any sugar added - it was 100% orange juice and nothing else. Probably it is the concentration? O__O

Okay. That*s all I can think of right now. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, please don*t hesitate to ask :).

((On another note : I will try to work on more interpretations for the Arabic parts. I just found a book on this subject, but haven*t been able to buy it until now :( ... I hope I will be able to do so soon!!))

94.4 kg :)

... is my new weight :). I actually started at 99.1 kilos several days ago, meaning I almost lost 5 kilos. This time, I will treat my current weight as if there was a difference of five kilos *yay~!* ^^. Meaning, I have to think of something I want to do to myself. Something good :) ... Who knows what it will be? I don*t yet :D.

Another weight loss entry :)

Abusing the balance this morning made me get the result "95.5 kg" :). I am really, really happy. Remember my start weight? That*s the point :D.

And my granny* didn*t notice that. But do I care? This time I won*t ... (She often makes strange remarks about my body, and I should be used to it by now.) I remember the last time I did care about that I stopped the entire diet; this time I will continue doing so.

Once again she talked to my mum* about my disease. I ... cannot say how much I hate that. "It is all her father's fault that she turned out to be ill!" and whatnot. =o= First of all, I AM NOT ILL. Even people sharing this fate have told me I am not. Secondly, why should it be my father's fault?! When I was diagnosed with schizophrenic psychosis I hadn*t seen him for quite awhile.

... But should I go around and tell everyone "whose fault" it is? Guess! It is entirely mine ... Solely mine. I said I was like that because I wanted to shelter another person. Who wouldn*t do that?! And in the end, it all turned out to be very real what I went through, and this is probably the worst thing of it all ...

Do what you want but don*t forget the ... MILK!

It*s been a long time since I last wrote something in here. So I told myself : "I should maybe do so again.", and here I am!! (Hooray for stupid intros, pt. 1!)

I hope everyone is alright. :)

I am happy because I started losing weight again. I stick to the pauses and haven*t drunk any cocoa or coke or similar stuff for the past four (?) days. I also don*t mind walking a little and whatnot.

The moment I weighed myself the first time again two or three days ago, I was not really surprised, though I should have been. 99.1 kilos - That*s way too much to take. I sort of felt numb, but also, I knew I wanted to change something about it ... And so I started the diet again.

Yesterday it was still 97.3 kilos, this morning it was 96.9 kilos. I know this sounds like much, but this is normal when you are doing this kind of diet ("Wake Up"). And the next few days will probably be harder, but I won*t give up again this time!

The bolded weight was the highest weight I have ever reached. I actually really hate the fact that I got to this point, and I am happy I was able to turn the steering wheel *round. Okay, it has just been a few days, but I have been disciplined. And I ate strawberries again~~!! +___+ (HOORAY FOR STRAWBERRIES!!! :D)

And that*s that. :)

And some more stuff ...

Minna-san, konnichiwa!! :D

I am really sorry for not having written in awhile. I did miss this blog somehow, and if I didn*t, I wouldn*t have returned here :P. I hope everyone is doing fine and that you didn*t miss me too much (actually I know of the two people reading that they did read the entries in between that I posted on another blog :D).

Well, I don*t really know where to start. I currently feel not very well with myself, but I hope this will change soon. Reason? I gained weight again, about four kilos, and now I have to lose more weight than before (obviously). I need to eat more fruits, but at least I avoided sweet drinks the last few days. If only this was enough, but nooo, it isn*t. ;_-_;

I updated my homepage recently. It features many things, but most are hidden behind numbers and "weird" names. At least that*s what others might think ... But I love staying in hiding :P.

I read one of my bucket lists again and I sort of feel like a complete failure. Even though I know I am not. There is actually something I am looking forward to this year, but I won*t tell you since I am paranoid and think it might not work if I did. BLAH. It was news that came to me when I felt really down several weeks ago, and ever since I have been thinking about it; it is my top priority and I want it to work out ^^.

But yeah, the bucket list ... I at least kept being a non-smoker and I even wrote my first class test in school already (Geography; 13 points). So one further step towards my goal of passing my Abitur.

And I should be learning for another class test right now. Since I haven*t read the book we are going to write about (uh-oh!) this is going to be a funny classtest. At least I hope I will be able to hear the story beforehand. .___. Okay, I know the story from the movies we*ve seen, but on the other hand, some might lie or not mention important things ... Hoo-effing-ray!

So ... That was that for now. :( I am sorry to bore you with such facts, but, hey, you wanted to read it after all ;P!

PS : I broke my left little finger almost two weeks ago, but don*t worry it is almost healed. Just doing sports, especially playing volleyball, right now is dangerous.