I don*t like stealing this from other people, BUT recently a friend of mine linked to this article on fitocracy. Reading through it somehow helped the self-bashing side of me, which DOES EXIST, to really try to focus on doing more of what I want to do, both eating-wise and sport-wise. Sport-wise is somewhat easy; usually I love sports that are not that monotonous, that require quick decisions sometimes, that also (partly) allow improvisation, and so on.
All in all, I am a huge fan of dancing. Many different kinds of dancing, even. :D Although maybe some people wouldn*t suspect it, I do adore industrial dancing, hiphop dancing, bellydancing, parapara (Yes, I count this as something extra :P), hoop dancing, and, and, and ... As for industrial dancing, you might come along this video when looking for examples. (I just love the "try-to-dance-industrial group" in the beginning because they don*t take themselves too seriously. Which is absolutely a plus!!)
But then there*s the eating point. I already cut out soda several weeks ago, and am doing fine with sticking to that, yet I don*t know what else I could do. All sides do tend to claim "Our product is best!!", and while some say, "No carbs!", others are against fat, and whatnot. Some also say that you shouldn*t eat anything after 6pm.
My problem is, I need breakfast, and one diet I have been doing says "Only fruits as breakfast, and on the weekends / on two days of the week, you can eat a musli or two slices of bread!" ... If I don*t get something "nice" for breakfast, I get really grumpy and tend to verbally attack others. It has happened before, and it is not nice.
Then, at lunch time, I don*t have many problems adjusting to certain plans. But since I eat breakfast (as in, slices of bread/musli) every day, I am scared now that this might not reduce weight that much? :( I am an ovo-lacto-vegetarian, too, but have been that ever since I was 11 years old (so approximately 18 years now). I*d *love* to go vegan, though. The thing is, whatsoever, I have cats, and I don*t want to feed them vegan food, so I will still have to support the ones slaughtering animals :(. [So it is also a thought/ideology problem!] However, I*d love to try it. I have seen some really good vegan cooking books, so ... :)
And meals in the evening are not that important, either. I don*t like eating too "heavy" meals then, though. Do you have any tips or ideas concerning this? =)
Montag, 5. August 2013
Montag, 11. März 2013
She*s dangerous.
Hello.
How have you enjoyed the past few days? I myself wrote songs (well, two of them), renovated, and read in two different books. I just wanted to come here and say "Hi", after all.
Somehow while looking over the past entries, I sort of started to miss posting the diet results, to give you one example. I definitely think I need to focus on my eating habits again because, although I have been mostly doing a weight-loss diet, I somehow lost track & ate a lot of stuff I was not exactly planning to eat. Not to mention I sometimes really think I am suffering from an ED again, but that*s a totally different story after all ...
I wish I could write more about this (maybe it would help some passers-by after all), but I also don*t want to trigger anybody nor make anybody feel bad about themselves just because of some stupid thing I wrote.
Let*s hope it will go back to normal again. I really hate the pressure I put onto myself, not to mention the fact I tend to rephrase in my mind everything food-related somebody else tells me, in a not-so-nice way.
~R.
How have you enjoyed the past few days? I myself wrote songs (well, two of them), renovated, and read in two different books. I just wanted to come here and say "Hi", after all.
Somehow while looking over the past entries, I sort of started to miss posting the diet results, to give you one example. I definitely think I need to focus on my eating habits again because, although I have been mostly doing a weight-loss diet, I somehow lost track & ate a lot of stuff I was not exactly planning to eat. Not to mention I sometimes really think I am suffering from an ED again, but that*s a totally different story after all ...
I wish I could write more about this (maybe it would help some passers-by after all), but I also don*t want to trigger anybody nor make anybody feel bad about themselves just because of some stupid thing I wrote.
Let*s hope it will go back to normal again. I really hate the pressure I put onto myself, not to mention the fact I tend to rephrase in my mind everything food-related somebody else tells me, in a not-so-nice way.
~R.
Sonntag, 24. Februar 2013
Passions.
Heyho :D.
Today*s entry won*t be about the project, but about something else ... I know of a whole bunch of blogs, all dedicated to single topics, which I *love* reading. :) Okay, I have some blogs on all kinds of subjects, but still sometimes feel overwhelmed by the task to write in these ... It is not that I don*t like them, but I often fear I am so engaged in several different topics of my life that it*d take ~56456498462 blogs to cover all my interests. :P But that*s fine of course, I just feel that exactly *this blog* is all over the place. Is this a bad thing? I am not sure.
I actually really want to be more active. Most of my thoughts are put into posts at other places, but I often feel that I needn*t be so ashamed of them that I hide them wherever I go. The world needs to know my thoughts, the world needs to know what is going on in my mind! :P
At times, I was scared of "da haterz", but then again, who gives a flying *EFF* about them? I had times when people randomly attacked me for what I wrote on my homepages (the old ones, you know), and very often this led to me being insecure about myself, my thoughts, my approaches toward life, just because of a bunch of morons who think that their attitude can change what is going on inside of me ... But it is up to me who will win after all. :P (*thought* "This is leading in a strange direction ..." *slaps thought*)
It*s not like I cannot stand criticism ... But it always depends on what effort the person saying things put into phrasing their statements in general! I think, after all, everybody is free to go in the direction they want creativity-wise, and that it is up to them how they express themselves. Life is about self-expression after all, and creativity can come in various forms!! It is not something that only a few people host within their souls, it is something we all are to a certain extend; namely the extend dictated by boundaries others put upon us.
And with this, having stars in my eyes, I will leave you again. But not for that long ... I hope you will enjoy the randomness of this blog & stay with me for ... ever :). If you want to, that is.
Today*s entry won*t be about the project, but about something else ... I know of a whole bunch of blogs, all dedicated to single topics, which I *love* reading. :) Okay, I have some blogs on all kinds of subjects, but still sometimes feel overwhelmed by the task to write in these ... It is not that I don*t like them, but I often fear I am so engaged in several different topics of my life that it*d take ~56456498462 blogs to cover all my interests. :P But that*s fine of course, I just feel that exactly *this blog* is all over the place. Is this a bad thing? I am not sure.
I actually really want to be more active. Most of my thoughts are put into posts at other places, but I often feel that I needn*t be so ashamed of them that I hide them wherever I go. The world needs to know my thoughts, the world needs to know what is going on in my mind! :P
At times, I was scared of "da haterz", but then again, who gives a flying *EFF* about them? I had times when people randomly attacked me for what I wrote on my homepages (the old ones, you know), and very often this led to me being insecure about myself, my thoughts, my approaches toward life, just because of a bunch of morons who think that their attitude can change what is going on inside of me ... But it is up to me who will win after all. :P (*thought* "This is leading in a strange direction ..." *slaps thought*)
It*s not like I cannot stand criticism ... But it always depends on what effort the person saying things put into phrasing their statements in general! I think, after all, everybody is free to go in the direction they want creativity-wise, and that it is up to them how they express themselves. Life is about self-expression after all, and creativity can come in various forms!! It is not something that only a few people host within their souls, it is something we all are to a certain extend; namely the extend dictated by boundaries others put upon us.
And with this, having stars in my eyes, I will leave you again. But not for that long ... I hope you will enjoy the randomness of this blog & stay with me for ... ever :). If you want to, that is.
Samstag, 23. Februar 2013
Somehow ...
I assume many thought this to be dead, and actually, for quite some time, I thought the same. But it is NOT dead, and I will show you :D.
I am planning a new project actually :). It will be linked here once I have the time to do it or finish it, that is (D*oh!). Please don*t explode from the excitement rising inside of you, just stay cool, take a drink or two (or three ...), and wait :D.
I wuv you all!!
I am planning a new project actually :). It will be linked here once I have the time to do it or finish it, that is (D*oh!). Please don*t explode from the excitement rising inside of you, just stay cool, take a drink or two (or three ...), and wait :D.
I wuv you all!!
Sonntag, 13. März 2011
This is totally going in my blog!!
Japan really, really worries me. I have been following the news on and off (off because I sometimes really couldn*t take it anymore ...), and donated money already. HOWEVER, I feel there is so much more I could do and give.
So I want to offer some services and donate the money I get for that to the DRK (German Red Cross) ... Besides that, I need to find a way to donate some items (clothing, maybe also food and water if there is an option ...).
Okay, as for the services, I know I will not offer all of them, but still ... Maybe some people could tell me what would be best to offer?
1. Make a comic (on the PC)
2. Compose a song for a certain situation
3. Sing a song of the choice of other people
4. Draw a fanart
5. Make an analysis for the Chinese horoscope of the client
6. Cartomancy (Lenormand)
7. Draw a portrait
8. Make a synastry horoscope + analysis (partner horoscope)
9. Make a comic (drawn)
10. Radix (natal) horoscope + analysis
11. Cartomancy (Tarot)
12. Palmistry analysis
13. Write a poem for a situation of the client*s choice
I*d be happy about some answers ... ^^
Thank you already, and bye~!
So I want to offer some services and donate the money I get for that to the DRK (German Red Cross) ... Besides that, I need to find a way to donate some items (clothing, maybe also food and water if there is an option ...).
Okay, as for the services, I know I will not offer all of them, but still ... Maybe some people could tell me what would be best to offer?
1. Make a comic (on the PC)
2. Compose a song for a certain situation
3. Sing a song of the choice of other people
4. Draw a fanart
5. Make an analysis for the Chinese horoscope of the client
6. Cartomancy (Lenormand)
7. Draw a portrait
8. Make a synastry horoscope + analysis (partner horoscope)
9. Make a comic (drawn)
10. Radix (natal) horoscope + analysis
11. Cartomancy (Tarot)
12. Palmistry analysis
13. Write a poem for a situation of the client*s choice
I*d be happy about some answers ... ^^
Thank you already, and bye~!
Montag, 9. August 2010
Öböböböböb!
Hello dear readers~!! :)
Okay, so I want to start with my diet again, and I also want to do some sports along the way. This morning I used the balance again (92.3 kilos). I don*t really care about the fact that this seems pretty high; I used to weigh 99.1 kilos, so ... This is okay ^^.
Today*s meals will be mainly FRUITS and (potato?) soup. I know, however, that during the first week, one loses a lot of weight. It is not a diet that only consists of these two things, though ... It is the same diet I have done several times, too ... One that I was very successful with, actually ... It was just my own will power that I lost.
Ah well. This time it will work out~ :D!
And, speaking of work out, I want to do more sports!! Dancing, aerobics, taking long walks, abusing the playground ... Besides that, I still have those theraband stretch bands :). Yay~!
Okay, so I want to start with my diet again, and I also want to do some sports along the way. This morning I used the balance again (92.3 kilos). I don*t really care about the fact that this seems pretty high; I used to weigh 99.1 kilos, so ... This is okay ^^.
Today*s meals will be mainly FRUITS and (potato?) soup. I know, however, that during the first week, one loses a lot of weight. It is not a diet that only consists of these two things, though ... It is the same diet I have done several times, too ... One that I was very successful with, actually ... It was just my own will power that I lost.
Ah well. This time it will work out~ :D!
And, speaking of work out, I want to do more sports!! Dancing, aerobics, taking long walks, abusing the playground ... Besides that, I still have those theraband stretch bands :). Yay~!
Samstag, 31. Juli 2010
STILL alive!
Welcome again~!
I thought I should update this blog, and maybe make an announcement at the same time :).
I reached one of my goals so far, which is "oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade". I passed my Abitur with a GPA of 1.6 ... ON TO NEW THINGS~!!
Besides that, I want to start my diet all over again now, and I want to post some results from creative work in this place, too. So keep reading this, please!
Thank you!
I thought I should update this blog, and maybe make an announcement at the same time :).
I reached one of my goals so far, which is "oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade". I passed my Abitur with a GPA of 1.6 ... ON TO NEW THINGS~!!
Besides that, I want to start my diet all over again now, and I want to post some results from creative work in this place, too. So keep reading this, please!
Thank you!
Sonntag, 8. November 2009
Urmel-aus-dem-Eis-Video :D!!
I just found one of the cutest things EVER :
I am currently wondering about some series of the "Augsburger Puppenkiste" I used to watch :). There was one that played in a hotel, I think, but I don*t remember what it was like :( ... Or the name of it. I forget things so easily, and in the end there are just vague memories left.
I am currently wondering about some series of the "Augsburger Puppenkiste" I used to watch :). There was one that played in a hotel, I think, but I don*t remember what it was like :( ... Or the name of it. I forget things so easily, and in the end there are just vague memories left.
Sonntag, 4. Oktober 2009
101/1001
Some of you might know what the title stands for. Basically, it is for doing 101 things in 1001 days, as in working on goals you have set for your life :). I have posted this list somewhere else already, and am also already working on the goals. I started on 9 August 2009, and the date it will be finished is 6 May 2012 :). I hope I will be able to post my progress every now and then.
And then again, I have other news for you ...
oo1) Practice playing the guitar every day for a month (0/31)
oo2) Get better at singing via taking classes, watching instruction videos, etc.
oo3) Do karaoke in a karaoke bar :)
oo4) Make a set of hairfalls
oo5) Goth up my wardrobe (aka get more gothic clothes)
oo6) Sew a piece of clothing
oo7) Get my left tragus pierced
oo8) Join a choir/band/etc. or start my own
oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade
o1o) Play/sing at a concert
o11) Make a natal chart and a natal chart interpretation for somebody else
o12) Get photos done of me wearing my favourite shoes and sexy clothes
o13) Cosplay
014) Reach at least 60kg
o15) Travel to either Finland or Japan ... Or both :D!
o16) Find my numerology book again, or buy a new one
o17) Start making interpretations for others concerning numerology
o18) Make at least one album for VV, as well as shrRî.ngAra karanA bleu
o19) Get the Cross Of Atlantis tattooed
o2o) Finish creating my own tarot deck (3/78)
o21) Write a biography about me to make others know more about me
o22) Learn the parapara moves to one song by Psycho le Cému, or to "Night Of Fire" by Hinoi Team and Korikki
o23) Learn how to read music FAST
o24) Tab a song of my choice
o25) Learn to love me again
o26) Learn to be more open around other people
o27) Get a super cool Közi/Kö-drück sign for my door :D
o28) Move out into my own flat
o29) Make a piece of furniture myself, or decorate them gothy (What is wrong with me that I want everything to be this way?!)
o3o) Make one ADIML
o31) Accept the fact I cannot change the past
o32) Meet up with some of my LJ friends
o33) Read 50 books (currently : 2/50)
o34) Continue learning Japanese
o35) Continue learning Finnish
o36) Start! learning! Bislama!
o37) Go to a music festival
o38) Participate in the Indaba project
o39) Write a travel guide-like text with tips, ideas, opinions, and so on
o4o) Start writing stories again
o41) Write a fanfiction on an anime series of my choice for a person of my choice
o42) Start with DOPA365
o43) Finish the DOPA365 list
o44) Buy at least one microphone
o45) Watch 20 movies that are new to me (1/20)
o46) Go to at least ONE concert
o47) Find a way to earn money and have fun at the same time
o48) Learn how to use make-up properly
o49) Go vegan for one month (0/31)
o5o) Write a novel in one month (doesn*t need to be November) (0/31)
o51) Learn how to draw in manga style properly
o52) Watch the remaining episodes of BSSM (at least of the 2nd season) (65/88 or 89)
o53) Continue reading Nana
o54) Try not to avoid conflict anymore, and be true to myself
o55) Draw ten more portraits (0/10)
o56) Encourage others to follow their dreams
o57) Start translating something from Japanese to English/German
o58) Do something for charity
o59) Learn how to walk on high heels
o6o) Make 15 new icons for my LJ (0/15)
o61) Finally have some snapdragons that survive ;___;
o62) Be open towards the people I care for concerning my disease
o63) Get everything I need for a stereo equipment, and build it up
o64) Interprete a really "strange" dream for a friend
o65) Download all the nack Közi videos and watch them one after another ♥
o66) Get a new rosary to wear everyday (used to have a turquoise one, but now it*s broken)
o67) Learn how to tell people mean things in Latin
o68) Cook 20 meals that I have never cooked before for others (0/20)
o69) Dare to be verrry experimental concerning my own music (as in, try all the genres I really care about :D)
o7o) Get 10 more cds (original of course!) (0/10)
o71) Write lyrics in French, Spanish, Finnish, and Japanese
o72) Write down what I like specifically in 10 songs of my choice, and try to get those things into my own ones without copying (0/10)
o73) Learn more about 3 religions of my choice (0/3)
o74) Get a bike to survive the traffic in the city, and ride it whenever I waaant tooo riiide myyy biiicycle
o75) Add new texts to the esoteric section on my homepage
o76) Get to know 3 more fine artists who are into surrealism (0/3)
o77) Create my own board game
o78) Dance every day for two weeks (0/14)
o79) Learn how to use a sewing machine
o8o) Take photos of everything making me happy
o81) Take photos during my next holiday
o82) Get to know my friends and family more than before
o83) Make collages that represent who I am, what I like, etc.
o84) Do something active for nature
o85) Get some jewellery with a deeper meaning to me
o86) Write a letter to myself monthly that has to be finished by the end of the challenge so that I can read it (I forgot to write in August, but I did September already :) ...)
o87) Allow myself to show my feelings, no matter what others think about it
o88) (Ask others to?) Take pictures of myself "before" and "after" my weight loss journey -- okay, the before needs to be taken as soon as possible
o89) Learn how to play five songs on the guitar (0/5)
o9o) Get my musical keyboard repaired
o91) Get my guitar repaired
o92) Demonstrate against something that seriously pisses me off
o93) Participate in an RPG :D
o94) Prove once again I am childish and create a j-rock comic
o95) Find fun ways to work out
o96) Learn all the words of the lyrics of 8 songs of my choice :) (0/8)
o97) Paint some walls turquoise (preferably in my future flat)
o98) Make myself a necklace with a certain symbol I wouldn*t find anywhere anyways
o99) Draw pictures of animals
1oo) Finally overcome my fear of escalators
1o1) Make a new list when these 1oo1 days are over~
The other news are : There are two more blogs I created recently.
One is for Esoteric in general, while the other is for writing about one of my favourite topics : MUSIC. In all its variations :).
Have a nice day!
And then again, I have other news for you ...
oo1) Practice playing the guitar every day for a month (0/31)
oo2) Get better at singing via taking classes, watching instruction videos, etc.
oo3) Do karaoke in a karaoke bar :)
oo4) Make a set of hairfalls
oo5) Goth up my wardrobe (aka get more gothic clothes)
oo6) Sew a piece of clothing
oo7) Get my left tragus pierced
oo8) Join a choir/band/etc. or start my own
oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade
o1o) Play/sing at a concert
o11) Make a natal chart and a natal chart interpretation for somebody else
o12) Get photos done of me wearing my favourite shoes and sexy clothes
o13) Cosplay
014) Reach at least 60kg
o15) Travel to either Finland or Japan ... Or both :D!
o16) Find my numerology book again, or buy a new one
o17) Start making interpretations for others concerning numerology
o18) Make at least one album for VV, as well as shrRî.ngAra karanA bleu
o19) Get the Cross Of Atlantis tattooed
o2o) Finish creating my own tarot deck (3/78)
o21) Write a biography about me to make others know more about me
o22) Learn the parapara moves to one song by Psycho le Cému, or to "Night Of Fire" by Hinoi Team and Korikki
o23) Learn how to read music FAST
o24) Tab a song of my choice
o25) Learn to love me again
o26) Learn to be more open around other people
o27) Get a super cool Közi/Kö-drück sign for my door :D
o28) Move out into my own flat
o29) Make a piece of furniture myself, or decorate them gothy (What is wrong with me that I want everything to be this way?!)
o3o) Make one ADIML
o31) Accept the fact I cannot change the past
o32) Meet up with some of my LJ friends
o33) Read 50 books (currently : 2/50)
o34) Continue learning Japanese
o35) Continue learning Finnish
o36) Start! learning! Bislama!
o37) Go to a music festival
o38) Participate in the Indaba project
o39) Write a travel guide-like text with tips, ideas, opinions, and so on
o4o) Start writing stories again
o41) Write a fanfiction on an anime series of my choice for a person of my choice
o42) Start with DOPA365
o43) Finish the DOPA365 list
o44) Buy at least one microphone
o45) Watch 20 movies that are new to me (1/20)
o46) Go to at least ONE concert
o47) Find a way to earn money and have fun at the same time
o48) Learn how to use make-up properly
o49) Go vegan for one month (0/31)
o5o) Write a novel in one month (doesn*t need to be November) (0/31)
o51) Learn how to draw in manga style properly
o52) Watch the remaining episodes of BSSM (at least of the 2nd season) (65/88 or 89)
o53) Continue reading Nana
o54) Try not to avoid conflict anymore, and be true to myself
o55) Draw ten more portraits (0/10)
o56) Encourage others to follow their dreams
o57) Start translating something from Japanese to English/German
o58) Do something for charity
o59) Learn how to walk on high heels
o6o) Make 15 new icons for my LJ (0/15)
o61) Finally have some snapdragons that survive ;___;
o62) Be open towards the people I care for concerning my disease
o63) Get everything I need for a stereo equipment, and build it up
o64) Interprete a really "strange" dream for a friend
o65) Download all the nack Közi videos and watch them one after another ♥
o66) Get a new rosary to wear everyday (used to have a turquoise one, but now it*s broken)
o67) Learn how to tell people mean things in Latin
o68) Cook 20 meals that I have never cooked before for others (0/20)
o69) Dare to be verrry experimental concerning my own music (as in, try all the genres I really care about :D)
o7o) Get 10 more cds (original of course!) (0/10)
o71) Write lyrics in French, Spanish, Finnish, and Japanese
o72) Write down what I like specifically in 10 songs of my choice, and try to get those things into my own ones without copying (0/10)
o73) Learn more about 3 religions of my choice (0/3)
o74) Get a bike to survive the traffic in the city, and ride it whenever I waaant tooo riiide myyy biiicycle
o75) Add new texts to the esoteric section on my homepage
o76) Get to know 3 more fine artists who are into surrealism (0/3)
o77) Create my own board game
o78) Dance every day for two weeks (0/14)
o79) Learn how to use a sewing machine
o8o) Take photos of everything making me happy
o81) Take photos during my next holiday
o82) Get to know my friends and family more than before
o83) Make collages that represent who I am, what I like, etc.
o84) Do something active for nature
o85) Get some jewellery with a deeper meaning to me
o86) Write a letter to myself monthly that has to be finished by the end of the challenge so that I can read it (I forgot to write in August, but I did September already :) ...)
o87) Allow myself to show my feelings, no matter what others think about it
o88) (Ask others to?) Take pictures of myself "before" and "after" my weight loss journey -- okay, the before needs to be taken as soon as possible
o89) Learn how to play five songs on the guitar (0/5)
o9o) Get my musical keyboard repaired
o91) Get my guitar repaired
o92) Demonstrate against something that seriously pisses me off
o93) Participate in an RPG :D
o94) Prove once again I am childish and create a j-rock comic
o95) Find fun ways to work out
o96) Learn all the words of the lyrics of 8 songs of my choice :) (0/8)
o97) Paint some walls turquoise (preferably in my future flat)
o98) Make myself a necklace with a certain symbol I wouldn*t find anywhere anyways
o99) Draw pictures of animals
1oo) Finally overcome my fear of escalators
1o1) Make a new list when these 1oo1 days are over~
The other news are : There are two more blogs I created recently.
One is for Esoteric in general, while the other is for writing about one of my favourite topics : MUSIC. In all its variations :).
Have a nice day!
Samstag, 26. September 2009
Hair cut #1 (partly stolen from my LJ)
"Looked deeply in her eyes; so delicate ... (Quite unlike her smile!)
Pic #1 : Before.
Pic #2 : Before.
Pic #3 : The weapon.
Pic #4 : After.
Pic #5 : After.
Other plans for the upcoming weeks :
~ Straighten all my hair
~ Crimp single streaks of my hair
~ Bleach it
~ Dye it blueish turquoise
~ Cut the bangs into an asymmetric cut
:) Now you also know what I look like ... Okay, you might have known it before because of my profile picture but anyways ... :D
Pic #1 : Before.
Pic #2 : Before.
Pic #3 : The weapon.
Pic #4 : After.
Pic #5 : After.
Other plans for the upcoming weeks :
~ Straighten all my hair
~ Crimp single streaks of my hair
~ Bleach it
~ Dye it blueish turquoise
~ Cut the bangs into an asymmetric cut
:) Now you also know what I look like ... Okay, you might have known it before because of my profile picture but anyways ... :D
Freitag, 25. September 2009
And yet more of a difference.
Yo! (Ain*t I cool? - NOOO!!)
I now only use the balance weekly, which is the best thing that might have happened to me lately. The weight this morning was 84.8 kilos (I gained 100g in comparison to last week*s Friday). I am still satisfied with it, though; at least I didn*t gain much more.
This week was the week of sweets - somehow. And bread. Which I actually only should eat twice a week. :( So, not paying attention to this, I ate a lot, but I kept the pauses, which might have been my rescue. And I didn*t eat the "Snickers" I was offered this week, because of that animal testing story that Mars was/is involved in. I wouldn*t support these morons, NEVER AGAIN.
*blah* But, well, today we will have Physical Education, so -- YAY~!! Ping pong!! ^.^ I think it is much fun. I hope I will be able to write a post in the other two blogs soon. I am looking forward to writing the articles :). Yesyesyes!
Oh, and BTW, I am working on a new piece of art~! ^.^
I now only use the balance weekly, which is the best thing that might have happened to me lately. The weight this morning was 84.8 kilos (I gained 100g in comparison to last week*s Friday). I am still satisfied with it, though; at least I didn*t gain much more.
This week was the week of sweets - somehow. And bread. Which I actually only should eat twice a week. :( So, not paying attention to this, I ate a lot, but I kept the pauses, which might have been my rescue. And I didn*t eat the "Snickers" I was offered this week, because of that animal testing story that Mars was/is involved in. I wouldn*t support these morons, NEVER AGAIN.
*blah* But, well, today we will have Physical Education, so -- YAY~!! Ping pong!! ^.^ I think it is much fun. I hope I will be able to write a post in the other two blogs soon. I am looking forward to writing the articles :). Yesyesyes!
Oh, and BTW, I am working on a new piece of art~! ^.^
Donnerstag, 24. September 2009
Some ... Ch-ch-ch-changes!
First of all, please let me draw your attention to a thing I have seen in another blog. The story behind it that the composer saw a picture of various birds on five wires, and put notes everywhere the birds sat, so that it became a melody :). The video can be found here.
Besides that, I just have the feeling I get back into blogging mood recently. It makes me happy there are blogs on so many different things, and you can read about them and get to know new things and whatnot. I guess mine is sort of "mixed", which might be a good thing, but maybemaybeMAYBE I should at least create new ones for other purposes, so that these things can be overviewed easily.
Maybe I will create a zine, too. It has been one of my dreams for quite a while now :P ... I also already know what to write about ... Okay, I actually have two things that might be interesting ... (To represent the Esotante of doom, and something related to music. Maybe I will ask for some help, though ... I don*t know yet :D.)
But, yeah, I am planning to upload a whole lot more. Hopefully I can live up to my dreams! GANBATTE!! ^^
Besides that, I just have the feeling I get back into blogging mood recently. It makes me happy there are blogs on so many different things, and you can read about them and get to know new things and whatnot. I guess mine is sort of "mixed", which might be a good thing, but maybemaybeMAYBE I should at least create new ones for other purposes, so that these things can be overviewed easily.
Maybe I will create a zine, too. It has been one of my dreams for quite a while now :P ... I also already know what to write about ... Okay, I actually have two things that might be interesting ... (To represent the Esotante of doom, and something related to music. Maybe I will ask for some help, though ... I don*t know yet :D.)
But, yeah, I am planning to upload a whole lot more. Hopefully I can live up to my dreams! GANBATTE!! ^^
Samstag, 18. Juli 2009
Yet more weight loss talk :)
Hello everyone :),
I know I am most likely annoying everyone with this, but I am still doing this diet, and I am happy to announce some days ago my weight was below 90 kilos and it stayed this way. And even though I hardly believe the weight the balance showed this morning (86.3 kilos) was right, I am still happy.
I wanted to write more about the diet, without advertising it.
- There are many different types of meals. For example, if you eat several pieces of the same fruit (up to approximately five when they have a certain size ...), you have to do two hours of a pause afterwards. If you eat various types of fruits at once, or if you eat something like yoghurt (PURE!) or drink milk (PURE!), there are two hours pause afterwards. Then there are alkaline meals (I think they have a pause of two hours afterwards, too, but I am not sure here), and concentrated (?) meals (three hours pause afterwards). And there are soups; some of them having only one pause afterwards. :)
- Besides the pauses, there are some things one has to notice. For example, when you want to eat bread with cheese, you have to pay attention that the cheese has at least 50% fat. If you want to eat carbs with mayonnaise, the mayonnaise has to have at least 80% fat. And the beat goes on. Funny though, it really works. ^^
- There is one absolutely fat-free day every week. It is called "Entlastungstag" in German, so ... "Relief day"?
- Ah yes, and with some meals, you have to eat some salad along with it. For example concentrated meals, but I think you also have to do so with alkaline meals. You also have to eat salad along with potato salad :). Because this counts as a concentrated meal as far as I know.
- There are many recipes for sweet stuff in the various books and thin booklets we have of this diet, but you have to plan those sweet meals very well :).
- Last but not least, if you drink tea or water, you can drink as much as you like from it (I think the only exception is black tea). Since I love tea, this is really a great thing ^o^ ... And I sometimes drink orange juice mixed with water, too. But not too much; I remember gaining weight from orange juice as it is :(. I actually wonder why, since it didn*t have any sugar added - it was 100% orange juice and nothing else. Probably it is the concentration? O__O
Okay. That*s all I can think of right now. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, please don*t hesitate to ask :).
((On another note : I will try to work on more interpretations for the Arabic parts. I just found a book on this subject, but haven*t been able to buy it until now :( ... I hope I will be able to do so soon!!))
I know I am most likely annoying everyone with this, but I am still doing this diet, and I am happy to announce some days ago my weight was below 90 kilos and it stayed this way. And even though I hardly believe the weight the balance showed this morning (86.3 kilos) was right, I am still happy.
I wanted to write more about the diet, without advertising it.
- There are many different types of meals. For example, if you eat several pieces of the same fruit (up to approximately five when they have a certain size ...), you have to do two hours of a pause afterwards. If you eat various types of fruits at once, or if you eat something like yoghurt (PURE!) or drink milk (PURE!), there are two hours pause afterwards. Then there are alkaline meals (I think they have a pause of two hours afterwards, too, but I am not sure here), and concentrated (?) meals (three hours pause afterwards). And there are soups; some of them having only one pause afterwards. :)
- Besides the pauses, there are some things one has to notice. For example, when you want to eat bread with cheese, you have to pay attention that the cheese has at least 50% fat. If you want to eat carbs with mayonnaise, the mayonnaise has to have at least 80% fat. And the beat goes on. Funny though, it really works. ^^
- There is one absolutely fat-free day every week. It is called "Entlastungstag" in German, so ... "Relief day"?
- Ah yes, and with some meals, you have to eat some salad along with it. For example concentrated meals, but I think you also have to do so with alkaline meals. You also have to eat salad along with potato salad :). Because this counts as a concentrated meal as far as I know.
- There are many recipes for sweet stuff in the various books and thin booklets we have of this diet, but you have to plan those sweet meals very well :).
- Last but not least, if you drink tea or water, you can drink as much as you like from it (I think the only exception is black tea). Since I love tea, this is really a great thing ^o^ ... And I sometimes drink orange juice mixed with water, too. But not too much; I remember gaining weight from orange juice as it is :(. I actually wonder why, since it didn*t have any sugar added - it was 100% orange juice and nothing else. Probably it is the concentration? O__O
Okay. That*s all I can think of right now. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, please don*t hesitate to ask :).
((On another note : I will try to work on more interpretations for the Arabic parts. I just found a book on this subject, but haven*t been able to buy it until now :( ... I hope I will be able to do so soon!!))
Sonntag, 17. Mai 2009
94.4 kg :)
... is my new weight :). I actually started at 99.1 kilos several days ago, meaning I almost lost 5 kilos. This time, I will treat my current weight as if there was a difference of five kilos *yay~!* ^^. Meaning, I have to think of something I want to do to myself. Something good :) ... Who knows what it will be? I don*t yet :D.
Freitag, 15. Mai 2009
Another weight loss entry :)
Abusing the balance this morning made me get the result "95.5 kg" :). I am really, really happy. Remember my start weight? That*s the point :D.
And my granny* didn*t notice that. But do I care? This time I won*t ... (She often makes strange remarks about my body, and I should be used to it by now.) I remember the last time I did care about that I stopped the entire diet; this time I will continue doing so.
Once again she talked to my mum* about my disease. I ... cannot say how much I hate that. "It is all her father's fault that she turned out to be ill!" and whatnot. =o= First of all, I AM NOT ILL. Even people sharing this fate have told me I am not. Secondly, why should it be my father's fault?! When I was diagnosed with schizophrenic psychosis I hadn*t seen him for quite awhile.
... But should I go around and tell everyone "whose fault" it is? Guess! It is entirely mine ... Solely mine. I said I was like that because I wanted to shelter another person. Who wouldn*t do that?! And in the end, it all turned out to be very real what I went through, and this is probably the worst thing of it all ...
And my granny* didn*t notice that. But do I care? This time I won*t ... (She often makes strange remarks about my body, and I should be used to it by now.) I remember the last time I did care about that I stopped the entire diet; this time I will continue doing so.
Once again she talked to my mum* about my disease. I ... cannot say how much I hate that. "It is all her father's fault that she turned out to be ill!" and whatnot. =o= First of all, I AM NOT ILL. Even people sharing this fate have told me I am not. Secondly, why should it be my father's fault?! When I was diagnosed with schizophrenic psychosis I hadn*t seen him for quite awhile.
... But should I go around and tell everyone "whose fault" it is? Guess! It is entirely mine ... Solely mine. I said I was like that because I wanted to shelter another person. Who wouldn*t do that?! And in the end, it all turned out to be very real what I went through, and this is probably the worst thing of it all ...
Donnerstag, 14. Mai 2009
Do what you want but don*t forget the ... MILK!
It*s been a long time since I last wrote something in here. So I told myself : "I should maybe do so again.", and here I am!! (Hooray for stupid intros, pt. 1!)
I hope everyone is alright. :)
I am happy because I started losing weight again. I stick to the pauses and haven*t drunk any cocoa or coke or similar stuff for the past four (?) days. I also don*t mind walking a little and whatnot.
The moment I weighed myself the first time again two or three days ago, I was not really surprised, though I should have been. 99.1 kilos - That*s way too much to take. I sort of felt numb, but also, I knew I wanted to change something about it ... And so I started the diet again.
Yesterday it was still 97.3 kilos, this morning it was 96.9 kilos. I know this sounds like much, but this is normal when you are doing this kind of diet ("Wake Up"). And the next few days will probably be harder, but I won*t give up again this time!
The bolded weight was the highest weight I have ever reached. I actually really hate the fact that I got to this point, and I am happy I was able to turn the steering wheel *round. Okay, it has just been a few days, but I have been disciplined. And I ate strawberries again~~!! +___+ (HOORAY FOR STRAWBERRIES!!! :D)
And that*s that. :)
I hope everyone is alright. :)
I am happy because I started losing weight again. I stick to the pauses and haven*t drunk any cocoa or coke or similar stuff for the past four (?) days. I also don*t mind walking a little and whatnot.
The moment I weighed myself the first time again two or three days ago, I was not really surprised, though I should have been. 99.1 kilos - That*s way too much to take. I sort of felt numb, but also, I knew I wanted to change something about it ... And so I started the diet again.
Yesterday it was still 97.3 kilos, this morning it was 96.9 kilos. I know this sounds like much, but this is normal when you are doing this kind of diet ("Wake Up"). And the next few days will probably be harder, but I won*t give up again this time!
The bolded weight was the highest weight I have ever reached. I actually really hate the fact that I got to this point, and I am happy I was able to turn the steering wheel *round. Okay, it has just been a few days, but I have been disciplined. And I ate strawberries again~~!! +___+ (HOORAY FOR STRAWBERRIES!!! :D)
And that*s that. :)
Sonntag, 15. März 2009
And some more stuff ...
Minna-san, konnichiwa!! :D
I am really sorry for not having written in awhile. I did miss this blog somehow, and if I didn*t, I wouldn*t have returned here :P. I hope everyone is doing fine and that you didn*t miss me too much (actually I know of the two people reading that they did read the entries in between that I posted on another blog :D).
Well, I don*t really know where to start. I currently feel not very well with myself, but I hope this will change soon. Reason? I gained weight again, about four kilos, and now I have to lose more weight than before (obviously). I need to eat more fruits, but at least I avoided sweet drinks the last few days. If only this was enough, but nooo, it isn*t. ;_-_;
I updated my homepage recently. It features many things, but most are hidden behind numbers and "weird" names. At least that*s what others might think ... But I love staying in hiding :P.
I read one of my bucket lists again and I sort of feel like a complete failure. Even though I know I am not. There is actually something I am looking forward to this year, but I won*t tell you since I am paranoid and think it might not work if I did. BLAH. It was news that came to me when I felt really down several weeks ago, and ever since I have been thinking about it; it is my top priority and I want it to work out ^^.
But yeah, the bucket list ... I at least kept being a non-smoker and I even wrote my first class test in school already (Geography; 13 points). So one further step towards my goal of passing my Abitur.
And I should be learning for another class test right now. Since I haven*t read the book we are going to write about (uh-oh!) this is going to be a funny classtest. At least I hope I will be able to hear the story beforehand. .___. Okay, I know the story from the movies we*ve seen, but on the other hand, some might lie or not mention important things ... Hoo-effing-ray!
So ... That was that for now. :( I am sorry to bore you with such facts, but, hey, you wanted to read it after all ;P!
PS : I broke my left little finger almost two weeks ago, but don*t worry it is almost healed. Just doing sports, especially playing volleyball, right now is dangerous.
I am really sorry for not having written in awhile. I did miss this blog somehow, and if I didn*t, I wouldn*t have returned here :P. I hope everyone is doing fine and that you didn*t miss me too much (actually I know of the two people reading that they did read the entries in between that I posted on another blog :D).
Well, I don*t really know where to start. I currently feel not very well with myself, but I hope this will change soon. Reason? I gained weight again, about four kilos, and now I have to lose more weight than before (obviously). I need to eat more fruits, but at least I avoided sweet drinks the last few days. If only this was enough, but nooo, it isn*t. ;_-_;
I updated my homepage recently. It features many things, but most are hidden behind numbers and "weird" names. At least that*s what others might think ... But I love staying in hiding :P.
I read one of my bucket lists again and I sort of feel like a complete failure. Even though I know I am not. There is actually something I am looking forward to this year, but I won*t tell you since I am paranoid and think it might not work if I did. BLAH. It was news that came to me when I felt really down several weeks ago, and ever since I have been thinking about it; it is my top priority and I want it to work out ^^.
But yeah, the bucket list ... I at least kept being a non-smoker and I even wrote my first class test in school already (Geography; 13 points). So one further step towards my goal of passing my Abitur.
And I should be learning for another class test right now. Since I haven*t read the book we are going to write about (uh-oh!) this is going to be a funny classtest. At least I hope I will be able to hear the story beforehand. .___. Okay, I know the story from the movies we*ve seen, but on the other hand, some might lie or not mention important things ... Hoo-effing-ray!
So ... That was that for now. :( I am sorry to bore you with such facts, but, hey, you wanted to read it after all ;P!
PS : I broke my left little finger almost two weeks ago, but don*t worry it is almost healed. Just doing sports, especially playing volleyball, right now is dangerous.
Freitag, 30. Januar 2009
Ich bin wieder da! ("Es ist nie zu spät, um alt zu sein!!")
OMG! I love going to the local book shop ... I love the esoteric division, and the music division, and ... Everything I saw was so great, and I want to buy all the books XDD.
We also got our school reports yesterday. I achieved 15 points in English, 13 points in Math, Geography, and German, 10 points in Sociology, and 9 points in P. E. :D. I am happy about the school report, even though I could have been a lot better in Sociology and P. E. ... But whatever :D. I am looking forward to the passing my final exams, but this will be next year :).
I am now at Facebook ... Okay, I have been there before, too, but I forgot about my account XDD. But now I remembered it. ("Ich war weg und bin jetzt wieder da!" ;D)
Okay, now on to the 4th semester, which will be over this summer! I am looking forward to it, even though it will be full of stress ...
Mh. I still wonder what I will do after school is over. Therefore, it is kind of good that I have to pass three more semesters until this moment. I want to concentrate on only one thing ... Even though I have a certain music college-type of school I am considering attending. But I don*t know how to get there ... Except for one thing : WORKING REALLY HARD. And that*s what I want to do ... I have more than only one option; this is my problem :(.
Okay, I wanted to show I am still here, and that I didn*t forget about this place ... Ahem.
We also got our school reports yesterday. I achieved 15 points in English, 13 points in Math, Geography, and German, 10 points in Sociology, and 9 points in P. E. :D. I am happy about the school report, even though I could have been a lot better in Sociology and P. E. ... But whatever :D. I am looking forward to the passing my final exams, but this will be next year :).
I am now at Facebook ... Okay, I have been there before, too, but I forgot about my account XDD. But now I remembered it. ("Ich war weg und bin jetzt wieder da!" ;D)
Okay, now on to the 4th semester, which will be over this summer! I am looking forward to it, even though it will be full of stress ...
Mh. I still wonder what I will do after school is over. Therefore, it is kind of good that I have to pass three more semesters until this moment. I want to concentrate on only one thing ... Even though I have a certain music college-type of school I am considering attending. But I don*t know how to get there ... Except for one thing : WORKING REALLY HARD. And that*s what I want to do ... I have more than only one option; this is my problem :(.
Okay, I wanted to show I am still here, and that I didn*t forget about this place ... Ahem.
Samstag, 24. Januar 2009
Wehrlos im Sturm der Gefühle!
Oh ... My ... Goth!
We just watched "Ein Mann, Ein Fjord!" :). I so rofled and loled (Hooray for internet speak!!). No really, it was one of the funniest movies I have ever seen in my life ... Especially the scenes with Uschi Blum were so effing funny!! :D *grins and falls down to the floor XDD*
Say what you want, Hape Kerkeling really rules :] ... And Norway is such a beautiful country +___+. I loved the guy that read the cards, too. He used a dog "happy families" game for this XDD. "The sledge dog symbolized danger!" XDDD
Seriously, I saw Yami no Bakura using YGO!-cards to tell someone his fortune, but this beats it all! *nods*
We just watched "Ein Mann, Ein Fjord!" :). I so rofled and loled (Hooray for internet speak!!). No really, it was one of the funniest movies I have ever seen in my life ... Especially the scenes with Uschi Blum were so effing funny!! :D *grins and falls down to the floor XDD*
Say what you want, Hape Kerkeling really rules :] ... And Norway is such a beautiful country +___+. I loved the guy that read the cards, too. He used a dog "happy families" game for this XDD. "The sledge dog symbolized danger!" XDDD
Seriously, I saw Yami no Bakura using YGO!-cards to tell someone his fortune, but this beats it all! *nods*
Freitag, 23. Januar 2009
Band dream Oô
I dreamed last night (once again) that I was in a band. We had only one song written, even though I asked the other members to write some music, too (the song was my own composition). I also wanted to cover "Enjoy The Silence". I was the singer this time, and I think I played the guitar as well. We practiced the song, but I don*t remember much about the rehearsals; then was a talent show or something which I don*t remember playing at, either. Anyways, I think we then had a pause, because I was watching TV (I don*t know whether I was watching with the others or alone), and the TV show host talked about the talent show, and wanted his audience to sort of tell him which band they thought best of ... Our song name was "Revolution", and we were the second band on stage that evening (out of five or so?). Anyways, the audience had to clap. I thought they would seriously freak out because of the band that was first, but they clapped moderately. As they then heard the song name "Revolution", they clapped louder, and longer. Maybe some of them even stood up? It was funny because the TV host had to mention the band*s names, not the song names. Anyhow, I was sort of confused because I didn*t know whether we were really meant by this. The third band had great applause, too, but still a little less than us. (BTW, as they heard the "Re" of "Revolution", they already started clapping Oô ...) As for the next two, I guess they weren*t that good, at least if the audience had to choose this. Mh. I was pretty amazed, too ...
My relationship to the rest of the band was somewhat ... strange, though. There was some young woman who I often argued with ... :( And the rest was just guys I don*t remember :P.
(But, goth, I*d so love to be in a real band ... With band members I*d get along with ... *sigh*)
** Current Music : * Red Hot Chili Peppers *-* Otherside * **
My relationship to the rest of the band was somewhat ... strange, though. There was some young woman who I often argued with ... :( And the rest was just guys I don*t remember :P.
(But, goth, I*d so love to be in a real band ... With band members I*d get along with ... *sigh*)
** Current Music : * Red Hot Chili Peppers *-* Otherside * **
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