Passions.

Heyho :D.

Today*s entry won*t be about the project, but about something else ... I know of a whole bunch of blogs, all dedicated to single topics, which I *love* reading. :) Okay, I have some blogs on all kinds of subjects, but still sometimes feel overwhelmed by the task to write in these ... It is not that I don*t like them, but I often fear I am so engaged in several different topics of my life that it*d take ~56456498462 blogs to cover all my interests. :P But that*s fine of course, I just feel that exactly *this blog* is all over the place. Is this a bad thing? I am not sure.

I actually really want to be more active. Most of my thoughts are put into posts at other places, but I often feel that I needn*t be so ashamed of them that I hide them wherever I go. The world needs to know my thoughts, the world needs to know what is going on in my mind! :P

At times, I was scared of "da haterz", but then again, who gives a flying *EFF* about them? I had times when people randomly attacked me for what I wrote on my homepages (the old ones, you know), and very often this led to me being insecure about myself, my thoughts, my approaches toward life, just because of a bunch of morons who think that their attitude can change what is going on inside of me ... But it is up to me who will win after all. :P (*thought* "This is leading in a strange direction ..." *slaps thought*)

It*s not like I cannot stand criticism ... But it always depends on what effort the person saying things put into phrasing their statements in general! I think, after all, everybody is free to go in the direction they want creativity-wise, and that it is up to them how they express themselves. Life is about self-expression after all, and creativity can come in various forms!! It is not something that only a few people host within their souls, it is something we all are to a certain extend; namely the extend dictated by boundaries others put upon us.

And with this, having stars in my eyes, I will leave you again. But not for that long ... I hope you will enjoy the randomness of this blog & stay with me for ... ever :). If you want to, that is.

Somehow ...

I assume many thought this to be dead, and actually, for quite some time, I thought the same. But it is NOT dead, and I will show you :D.

I am planning a new project actually :). It will be linked here once I have the time to do it or finish it, that is (D*oh!). Please don*t explode from the excitement rising inside of you, just stay cool, take a drink or two (or three ...), and wait :D.

I wuv you all!!

This is totally going in my blog!!

Japan really, really worries me. I have been following the news on and off (off because I sometimes really couldn*t take it anymore ...), and donated money already. HOWEVER, I feel there is so much more I could do and give.

So I want to offer some services and donate the money I get for that to the DRK (German Red Cross) ... Besides that, I need to find a way to donate some items (clothing, maybe also food and water if there is an option ...).

Okay, as for the services, I know I will not offer all of them, but still ... Maybe some people could tell me what would be best to offer?

1. Make a comic (on the PC)
2. Compose a song for a certain situation
3. Sing a song of the choice of other people
4. Draw a fanart
5. Make an analysis for the Chinese horoscope of the client
6. Cartomancy (Lenormand)
7. Draw a portrait
8. Make a synastry horoscope + analysis (partner horoscope)
9. Make a comic (drawn)
10. Radix (natal) horoscope + analysis
11. Cartomancy (Tarot)
12. Palmistry analysis
13. Write a poem for a situation of the client*s choice

I*d be happy about some answers ... ^^

Thank you already, and bye~!

Öböböböböb!

Hello dear readers~!! :)

Okay, so I want to start with my diet again, and I also want to do some sports along the way. This morning I used the balance again (92.3 kilos). I don*t really care about the fact that this seems pretty high; I used to weigh 99.1 kilos, so ... This is okay ^^.

Today*s meals will be mainly FRUITS and (potato?) soup. I know, however, that during the first week, one loses a lot of weight. It is not a diet that only consists of these two things, though ... It is the same diet I have done several times, too ... One that I was very successful with, actually ... It was just my own will power that I lost.

Ah well. This time it will work out~ :D!

And, speaking of work out, I want to do more sports!! Dancing, aerobics, taking long walks, abusing the playground ... Besides that, I still have those theraband stretch bands :). Yay~!

STILL alive!

Welcome again~!

I thought I should update this blog, and maybe make an announcement at the same time :).

I reached one of my goals so far, which is "oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade". I passed my Abitur with a GPA of 1.6 ... ON TO NEW THINGS~!!

Besides that, I want to start my diet all over again now, and I want to post some results from creative work in this place, too. So keep reading this, please!

Thank you!

Urmel-aus-dem-Eis-Video :D!!

I just found one of the cutest things EVER :



I am currently wondering about some series of the "Augsburger Puppenkiste" I used to watch :). There was one that played in a hotel, I think, but I don*t remember what it was like :( ... Or the name of it. I forget things so easily, and in the end there are just vague memories left.

101/1001

Some of you might know what the title stands for. Basically, it is for doing 101 things in 1001 days, as in working on goals you have set for your life :). I have posted this list somewhere else already, and am also already working on the goals. I started on 9 August 2009, and the date it will be finished is 6 May 2012 :). I hope I will be able to post my progress every now and then.

And then again, I have other news for you ...

oo1) Practice playing the guitar every day for a month (0/31)
oo2) Get better at singing via taking classes, watching instruction videos, etc.
oo3) Do karaoke in a karaoke bar :)
oo4) Make a set of hairfalls
oo5) Goth up my wardrobe (aka get more gothic clothes)
oo6) Sew a piece of clothing
oo7) Get my left tragus pierced
oo8) Join a choir/band/etc. or start my own
oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade
o1o) Play/sing at a concert
o11) Make a natal chart and a natal chart interpretation for somebody else
o12) Get photos done of me wearing my favourite shoes and sexy clothes
o13) Cosplay
014) Reach at least 60kg
o15) Travel to either Finland or Japan ... Or both :D!
o16) Find my numerology book again, or buy a new one
o17) Start making interpretations for others concerning numerology
o18) Make at least one album for VV, as well as shrRî.ngAra karanA bleu
o19) Get the Cross Of Atlantis tattooed
o2o) Finish creating my own tarot deck (3/78)
o21) Write a biography about me to make others know more about me
o22) Learn the parapara moves to one song by Psycho le Cému, or to "Night Of Fire" by Hinoi Team and Korikki
o23) Learn how to read music FAST
o24) Tab a song of my choice
o25) Learn to love me again
o26) Learn to be more open around other people
o27) Get a super cool Közi/Kö-drück sign for my door :D
o28) Move out into my own flat
o29) Make a piece of furniture myself, or decorate them gothy (What is wrong with me that I want everything to be this way?!)
o3o) Make one ADIML
o31) Accept the fact I cannot change the past
o32) Meet up with some of my LJ friends
o33) Read 50 books (currently : 2/50)
o34) Continue learning Japanese
o35) Continue learning Finnish
o36) Start! learning! Bislama!
o37) Go to a music festival
o38) Participate in the Indaba project
o39) Write a travel guide-like text with tips, ideas, opinions, and so on
o4o) Start writing stories again
o41) Write a fanfiction on an anime series of my choice for a person of my choice
o42) Start with DOPA365
o43) Finish the DOPA365 list
o44) Buy at least one microphone
o45) Watch 20 movies that are new to me (1/20)
o46) Go to at least ONE concert
o47) Find a way to earn money and have fun at the same time
o48) Learn how to use make-up properly
o49) Go vegan for one month (0/31)
o5o) Write a novel in one month (doesn*t need to be November) (0/31)
o51) Learn how to draw in manga style properly
o52) Watch the remaining episodes of BSSM (at least of the 2nd season) (65/88 or 89)
o53) Continue reading Nana
o54) Try not to avoid conflict anymore, and be true to myself
o55) Draw ten more portraits (0/10)
o56) Encourage others to follow their dreams
o57) Start translating something from Japanese to English/German
o58) Do something for charity
o59) Learn how to walk on high heels
o6o) Make 15 new icons for my LJ (0/15)
o61) Finally have some snapdragons that survive ;___;
o62) Be open towards the people I care for concerning my disease
o63) Get everything I need for a stereo equipment, and build it up
o64) Interprete a really "strange" dream for a friend
o65) Download all the nack Közi videos and watch them one after another ♥
o66) Get a new rosary to wear everyday (used to have a turquoise one, but now it*s broken)
o67) Learn how to tell people mean things in Latin
o68) Cook 20 meals that I have never cooked before for others (0/20)
o69) Dare to be verrry experimental concerning my own music (as in, try all the genres I really care about :D)
o7o) Get 10 more cds (original of course!) (0/10)
o71) Write lyrics in French, Spanish, Finnish, and Japanese
o72) Write down what I like specifically in 10 songs of my choice, and try to get those things into my own ones without copying (0/10)
o73) Learn more about 3 religions of my choice (0/3)
o74) Get a bike to survive the traffic in the city, and ride it whenever I waaant tooo riiide myyy biiicycle
o75) Add new texts to the esoteric section on my homepage
o76) Get to know 3 more fine artists who are into surrealism (0/3)
o77) Create my own board game
o78) Dance every day for two weeks (0/14)
o79) Learn how to use a sewing machine
o8o) Take photos of everything making me happy
o81) Take photos during my next holiday
o82) Get to know my friends and family more than before
o83) Make collages that represent who I am, what I like, etc.
o84) Do something active for nature
o85) Get some jewellery with a deeper meaning to me
o86) Write a letter to myself monthly that has to be finished by the end of the challenge so that I can read it (I forgot to write in August, but I did September already :) ...)
o87) Allow myself to show my feelings, no matter what others think about it
o88) (Ask others to?) Take pictures of myself "before" and "after" my weight loss journey -- okay, the before needs to be taken as soon as possible
o89) Learn how to play five songs on the guitar (0/5)
o9o) Get my musical keyboard repaired
o91) Get my guitar repaired
o92) Demonstrate against something that seriously pisses me off
o93) Participate in an RPG :D
o94) Prove once again I am childish and create a j-rock comic
o95) Find fun ways to work out
o96) Learn all the words of the lyrics of 8 songs of my choice :) (0/8)
o97) Paint some walls turquoise (preferably in my future flat)
o98) Make myself a necklace with a certain symbol I wouldn*t find anywhere anyways
o99) Draw pictures of animals
1oo) Finally overcome my fear of escalators
1o1) Make a new list when these 1oo1 days are over~

The other news are : There are two more blogs I created recently.

One is for Esoteric in general, while the other is for writing about one of my favourite topics : MUSIC. In all its variations :).

Have a nice day!