101/1001

Some of you might know what the title stands for. Basically, it is for doing 101 things in 1001 days, as in working on goals you have set for your life :). I have posted this list somewhere else already, and am also already working on the goals. I started on 9 August 2009, and the date it will be finished is 6 May 2012 :). I hope I will be able to post my progress every now and then.

And then again, I have other news for you ...

oo1) Practice playing the guitar every day for a month (0/31)
oo2) Get better at singing via taking classes, watching instruction videos, etc.
oo3) Do karaoke in a karaoke bar :)
oo4) Make a set of hairfalls
oo5) Goth up my wardrobe (aka get more gothic clothes)
oo6) Sew a piece of clothing
oo7) Get my left tragus pierced
oo8) Join a choir/band/etc. or start my own
oo9) Pass my Abitur with a good grade
o1o) Play/sing at a concert
o11) Make a natal chart and a natal chart interpretation for somebody else
o12) Get photos done of me wearing my favourite shoes and sexy clothes
o13) Cosplay
014) Reach at least 60kg
o15) Travel to either Finland or Japan ... Or both :D!
o16) Find my numerology book again, or buy a new one
o17) Start making interpretations for others concerning numerology
o18) Make at least one album for VV, as well as shrRî.ngAra karanA bleu
o19) Get the Cross Of Atlantis tattooed
o2o) Finish creating my own tarot deck (3/78)
o21) Write a biography about me to make others know more about me
o22) Learn the parapara moves to one song by Psycho le Cému, or to "Night Of Fire" by Hinoi Team and Korikki
o23) Learn how to read music FAST
o24) Tab a song of my choice
o25) Learn to love me again
o26) Learn to be more open around other people
o27) Get a super cool Közi/Kö-drück sign for my door :D
o28) Move out into my own flat
o29) Make a piece of furniture myself, or decorate them gothy (What is wrong with me that I want everything to be this way?!)
o3o) Make one ADIML
o31) Accept the fact I cannot change the past
o32) Meet up with some of my LJ friends
o33) Read 50 books (currently : 2/50)
o34) Continue learning Japanese
o35) Continue learning Finnish
o36) Start! learning! Bislama!
o37) Go to a music festival
o38) Participate in the Indaba project
o39) Write a travel guide-like text with tips, ideas, opinions, and so on
o4o) Start writing stories again
o41) Write a fanfiction on an anime series of my choice for a person of my choice
o42) Start with DOPA365
o43) Finish the DOPA365 list
o44) Buy at least one microphone
o45) Watch 20 movies that are new to me (1/20)
o46) Go to at least ONE concert
o47) Find a way to earn money and have fun at the same time
o48) Learn how to use make-up properly
o49) Go vegan for one month (0/31)
o5o) Write a novel in one month (doesn*t need to be November) (0/31)
o51) Learn how to draw in manga style properly
o52) Watch the remaining episodes of BSSM (at least of the 2nd season) (65/88 or 89)
o53) Continue reading Nana
o54) Try not to avoid conflict anymore, and be true to myself
o55) Draw ten more portraits (0/10)
o56) Encourage others to follow their dreams
o57) Start translating something from Japanese to English/German
o58) Do something for charity
o59) Learn how to walk on high heels
o6o) Make 15 new icons for my LJ (0/15)
o61) Finally have some snapdragons that survive ;___;
o62) Be open towards the people I care for concerning my disease
o63) Get everything I need for a stereo equipment, and build it up
o64) Interprete a really "strange" dream for a friend
o65) Download all the nack Közi videos and watch them one after another ♥
o66) Get a new rosary to wear everyday (used to have a turquoise one, but now it*s broken)
o67) Learn how to tell people mean things in Latin
o68) Cook 20 meals that I have never cooked before for others (0/20)
o69) Dare to be verrry experimental concerning my own music (as in, try all the genres I really care about :D)
o7o) Get 10 more cds (original of course!) (0/10)
o71) Write lyrics in French, Spanish, Finnish, and Japanese
o72) Write down what I like specifically in 10 songs of my choice, and try to get those things into my own ones without copying (0/10)
o73) Learn more about 3 religions of my choice (0/3)
o74) Get a bike to survive the traffic in the city, and ride it whenever I waaant tooo riiide myyy biiicycle
o75) Add new texts to the esoteric section on my homepage
o76) Get to know 3 more fine artists who are into surrealism (0/3)
o77) Create my own board game
o78) Dance every day for two weeks (0/14)
o79) Learn how to use a sewing machine
o8o) Take photos of everything making me happy
o81) Take photos during my next holiday
o82) Get to know my friends and family more than before
o83) Make collages that represent who I am, what I like, etc.
o84) Do something active for nature
o85) Get some jewellery with a deeper meaning to me
o86) Write a letter to myself monthly that has to be finished by the end of the challenge so that I can read it (I forgot to write in August, but I did September already :) ...)
o87) Allow myself to show my feelings, no matter what others think about it
o88) (Ask others to?) Take pictures of myself "before" and "after" my weight loss journey -- okay, the before needs to be taken as soon as possible
o89) Learn how to play five songs on the guitar (0/5)
o9o) Get my musical keyboard repaired
o91) Get my guitar repaired
o92) Demonstrate against something that seriously pisses me off
o93) Participate in an RPG :D
o94) Prove once again I am childish and create a j-rock comic
o95) Find fun ways to work out
o96) Learn all the words of the lyrics of 8 songs of my choice :) (0/8)
o97) Paint some walls turquoise (preferably in my future flat)
o98) Make myself a necklace with a certain symbol I wouldn*t find anywhere anyways
o99) Draw pictures of animals
1oo) Finally overcome my fear of escalators
1o1) Make a new list when these 1oo1 days are over~

The other news are : There are two more blogs I created recently.

One is for Esoteric in general, while the other is for writing about one of my favourite topics : MUSIC. In all its variations :).

Have a nice day!

Ich bin wieder da! ("Es ist nie zu spät, um alt zu sein!!")

OMG! I love going to the local book shop ... I love the esoteric division, and the music division, and ... Everything I saw was so great, and I want to buy all the books XDD.

We also got our school reports yesterday. I achieved 15 points in English, 13 points in Math, Geography, and German, 10 points in Sociology, and 9 points in P. E. :D. I am happy about the school report, even though I could have been a lot better in Sociology and P. E. ... But whatever :D. I am looking forward to the passing my final exams, but this will be next year :).

I am now at Facebook ... Okay, I have been there before, too, but I forgot about my account XDD. But now I remembered it. ("Ich war weg und bin jetzt wieder da!" ;D)

Okay, now on to the 4th semester, which will be over this summer! I am looking forward to it, even though it will be full of stress ...

Mh. I still wonder what I will do after school is over. Therefore, it is kind of good that I have to pass three more semesters until this moment. I want to concentrate on only one thing ... Even though I have a certain music college-type of school I am considering attending. But I don*t know how to get there ... Except for one thing : WORKING REALLY HARD. And that*s what I want to do ... I have more than only one option; this is my problem :(.

Okay, I wanted to show I am still here, and that I didn*t forget about this place ... Ahem.

So much to tell, so little time ...

I just participated in a test that should show you what your ideal job will be and whatnot. It was sort of depressing, because the result was something I didn*t like ... Some jobs connected to sports, for example. Or teeth Oô. I surely wouldn*t like to do this ...

Fact is, music therapist is a good job, but right now, I feel like I lack the enthusiasm about it. I, however, started composing a new song today. It features power chords ONLY so far, so I guess it is not that good, but on the other hand, I just hope I will be able to concentrate on something I like doing. Such as "making music". The song itself is called "Freedom", like so many other songs written before, and since I played the chords like a billion times today I feel I have heard it somewhere before. And I hate this feeling because you never know whether you really stole it from somebody else ... Gahgahgah. I will play it to my family this weekend; I hope I will be finished with the chords and so on by then. Most of the music is written already, with funny numbers that represent the single chords.

I feel a little bit sad about this result, really. But who am I to think a machine, a computer knows what is best for me? It just tried to help, and I am thankful for this ... But then again, I hope I will get a job that is connected with the thing I love most ... MUSIC.

And I need to go grocery shopping tomorrow in the early morning hours. DO NOT WANT!! ó___ò

(I guess I will write a lot more tomorrow, but that is that for now. Feel relieved. Happy. Insecure about what is to come :P ...)

Je cherche une âme qui pourra m*aider ...

Goth, I love this song ("Désenchantée" by Mylène Farmer ...).

I didn*t find the hair dye so far, but I feel like I lost a billion kilos of weight so far :). Maybe it is not that much. I told Meian* that I will use the balance tomorrow, and then we*ll see ^^.

I want to create a list of things I will do whenever I lost five more kilos. To keep me going ... Mh! Hopefully I will do those things for real then :D. I will post the list later most likely. Need to think about the goals and so on.

And I might create an account with a certain page. Need to think this over before; maybe I will do so a little later or something ...

(And the pain started again ;___; ...)

The love ... and the laziness .___.

I still haven*t continued reading "Effi Briest". Shame on me!! *hides* *seeks* *közis* XDD

Which now leads me to the next topic : THE LOVE :D. I am currently listening to Közi*s music again ... It has been awhile since I listened to it last time - officially, at least. I cannot say how much I love his music ... And I have got to say : Minako has got a nice voice (currently listening to "Kaikou"). If only I know what they were singing/saying in this song ... Mmmf!! Okay, I understand "Izayoi no tsuki" when Közi starts speaking. But that is that.

Ah yeah. We got our English marks today :] ... *dances around* I will probably tell you when I finally hold the school report in my hands. But I can say : I am very, very happy about my mark!! ^.^ My teacher asked me some questions after she told me about it, whether I want to work in a field which enables me to speak English more or something. I told her I want to go abroad. No lie :). Same goes for the field I*d love to work in; I said I want to do something with music, didn*t want to mention the music therapy stuff now, but ... Oh well. She seemed a bit surprised, asking me whether I play an instrument. Which I can say I do. ^^

Mmh ... What else? I learned something important today, even though nobody told me or so. It was a special on TV about a clairvoyant woman and the fact she helped a young woman and her brother to search for their father, who maybe died because of the tsunami several years ago. (Was it in Sri Lanka? I don*t know, really, for the reason I was very ill during this time, or at least hospitalized ...) It was really awful; she tried to keep her face, but nobody knows whether she was just following an illusion or whatever. She even tried to "talk" to the father. By "talk", I guess you know what I mean. I can imagine her situation, but also that of the siblings ... And there are people saying that one shouldn*t say anything about death e. g. when doing tarot readings. Maybe it is the same with helping people out of a situation ... Or at least, it always seems to me that, whenever a psychic person (I don*t even doubt they have certain gifts!) gets money for using their senses, it turns out to be a complete disaster.

Anyways, I don*t want to take money for doing e. g. tarot readings, or for whatever else I might do for others in my future. Which is a reason why I couldn*t work in this field ... I would fear losing my abilities because of the constant use of them and whatnot. I don*t want to end up this way. And as for death questions -- not for me. I remember I once wanted to know how a certain person, a former friend of mine, was, and even though I didn*t know how certain things worked those days, I did what my heart told me ... And felt nothing but a "hole". It was really a hollow feeling, something was missing. Later I was told she died. It was really a strange situation.

What is also strange is that, whenever I think back of this event, I see a part of our old house infront of me, but it has nothing to do with that. I just always connect this event with this part of our old house, that I didn*t even live in anymore those days.

When it comes to things like that, it is such a fragile topic ... And I hope nobody blames anyone for the fact they didn*t find the father in the end. I loved the end of the episode, though : they put a picture of him into some kind of bowl, and they said that they hope just the best for the father, no matter where he is right now.

And now I am freezing. Need to get up early tomorrow. ~__~

Much love!!

La musique ...

I found a nice page yesterday which you have to pay for ... At least if you want to use all the features. However, a "basic account" there is free. Downside? You have to give them your postal adress, and I currently wonder why ... It is a page where you can find musicians who are looking for bands or single band members, but who also would play only from time to time. I think that it would be a good way of getting over my boredom, my solitude, whatever. Yeah, I must sound really depressive now :P.

Whatever. I guess that, even if I found somebody on this page, I wouldn*t continue staying in contact with them. Which is my own fault, I know. The last time I was looking for band members sort of made me angry and feel even more lonely, or laughed at. I think nobody deserves being treated this way. On the other hand, I*d need a room, some space, to play with others. PLUS : Jam Sessions? This sounds like "We don*t want any 'beginners' to play with us!" ... Even though I am definitely not a beginner anymore. But I am not even close to advanced ...

I want to have a band. But beforehand, I guess I have to figure some things out by myself. I already know its name, and I want us to play at festivals and whatnot. If only I knew what style the music would be ... If I may say this, I would love to invent a music genre of my own. I wouldn*t know how to call it, but I don*t want to copy anybody else. I have various instruments I like - both exotic as well as "old" ones. However, would it be more ... Electronic? Or "organic"? I don*t know ...

I feel so tired and sick of everything, it has to get out of me. I know music is a good way to get to that point. Like, my own music therapy. I want to set up a plan of what to do ... But I know I might not stick to it anyways. Maybe if I didn*t set a certain date or something? It wouldn*t set me under that much pressure ...

*switches on "Promenade" by Közi and instantly feels better*

(Isn*t it strange what one song can do? :D) I should maybe search for another page like this first. Maybe I will find some people. Not directly for a band, but friends to make music with :). To meet up and play something from time to time. But no jam sessions at first! I can improvise, but only as long as there*s nobody else playing along Oô ... Mh. And maybe I shouldn*t put too much pressure on me at first -- even though I have to admit this is kinda hard. But, it is easier to solve various little problems than one big one. So ...

LET*S GO!! ^_____________^

To-do-list for the upcoming week :)

* Buy hair dye (I finally found some product to dye my hair with ^^)
* Practice the guitar
* Read at least until chapter 19 of "Effi Briest" (I am currently reading the sixth or seventh chapter ... Dunno .___.! -- But luckily the chapters aren*t that long!)
* Try to find some books on music therapy on a certain homepage
* Write down what happened in the 15th chapter of "Effi Briest", and judge the niceness of the characters throughout the first 19 chapters .___.
* Write some more interpretations (astrology-wise)
* Weigh myself (I don*t feel like I lost weight today :( ...)
* Sing!
* Continue taking the medication I got from the doctor
* Continue watching the second season of Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon :D
(...)

I guess that*s that for now.

Maybe I am just bored ... "^^" Guess that this was the reason for this post ... Guess I will either continue reading "Effi Briest" now, orrr I will continue watching Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon XD ... Mmh. Do you really need to know my decision? ^_^ (I guess I will do both in a certain way :D!)


** Current Music : * Siouxsie And The Banshees *-* Spellbound * **

Ichi, ni, san, shi ...

Good evening, ladies and gentlemen!

I forgot to tell you the result of my last math test. It was 13 points (A-). I don*t know how many points I already collected for my final exams, though. And since we had P. E. today, I hope I will get a good grade in P. E., too, even though I am not THAT good, but I have never missed a P. E. lesson. Goth, I am exhausted right now ... REALLY.

I need to send a small package tomorrow. And I am totally tired ...

What do you guys think of the song "Chou Super Happy" (SP?) by Psycho le Cému and this other guy / band / whatever (Yeah, I know much about him/them ...)? I absolutely love it. It always cheers me up :D. And isn*t it great that I can count a little in Japanese?! Ichi, ni, san, shi, go, roku, shichi, hachi, kyuu, juu ... Or something like this. Please correct me if I am totally wrong .___. ...

Chou~ happy, super happy!! (And I always understand "Sie kennen Aya; sie kennen dich!" at some point XDD ...)

*is tired* I will go to bed in a few minutes. There are just some things that need to be done beforehand ~__~ ...

Come to me ...

Sternchen* is currently sitting on the bed right next to this pc :). Aaand I finally managed to find out how to add features to this blog, so that I can pimp it ;^^;. This is really important for me, hehe.

Besides this, school*s~ out~ for~ Thursday!! ^o^ I feel happy so far, only one more day to go ... I am scared of P. E. tomorrow; not because of the sports we have to do, but because of the fact we need to get out of there into the cold, cold winter night -___-. But there*s nothing we could do about it.

(And sometimes I must admit that certain songs just don*t fit to certain videos °-o-° ... But that*s maybe just my point of view.)

I must read more of "Effi Briest", and slowly, the book starts to get interesting ... ^^ So maybe I am lucky and it won*t bore the hell out of me. And fortunately only descriptions of people, meaning I don*t have to imagine much :D.

Also I wish I showed more talent for music. I sometimes get the feeling that some people have an easy understanding for this, and even though I have certain aspects both of my personality as well as in my natal chart, for example, that point towards creativity and so on, I often am not satisfied with what I am doing. Probably because of certain other aspects of my personality ... AHEM. But pull yourself together, Rina. Or something. XD

I drew something today again ... It is cute, but I don*t know whether I should show you :\ ... I will maybe get Meian* to scan that picture we drew yesterday, but as for the one I drew today ... It is supposed to be my lucky picture ^__^.

"Life goes on ... And on ... And on ..." If it weren*t this late now I would definitely practice playing the guitar ... But as it is late, and the neighbours would get furious, ... I will ... play the guitar now!! XDD Nah, unfortunately I am just kidding. *sigh*

*switches on "Innermost ..."*

I guess I am in love with this song. And I wish I could figure out the guitar notes. Even though I guess this wouldn*t be THAT hard work if I practiced more. Hey, at least I was able to play that stupid Lindenstraße theme last time. But I somehow managed to not write it down and now I am not sure whether I can play it anymore :D.

So, as the Germans would say now : "Gehabt euch wohl!", which isn*t used widely anymore, but I somehow like this way to say "bye" ^^. Sleep well, and sleep tight. Aaand have nice dreams!! And be a good boy / girl! ^____^

Nighty night!!